Aka: The end of the bulutong blog series.
Just a little update.
I guess I wasn't able to blog yesterday because it was when things already happened. My clouded eyes are already clearer, and I finally know all the reasons, and thus the end of the wondering.
Also, with perfectly synchronized timing, it's also the end of my infectious state (aka chicken pox). I think I am super well already, I can go out now and dance in the rain.
Even though there's nothing to dance about.
People were hurt, and things were said without thinking, I have regrets on doing so, but now I get to pay for the not so nice things I've felt and done. I have no power to undo things, or even more the power to persuade what I wanted from others. I completely understand everything, and all I can do now is wait.
I still believe, even though I am openly sad right now, that things happen for God's perfect reasons. I currently have no clue why, but I still hold on to that mindset, less I want to die now out of depression. Other than God's reasons, I also believe in HIS time. That day will come when things are okay again, but for now while I wait, I guess it's okay to enjoy other things...Like maybe, hangout with friends I haven't seen and actually connect for so long. Or pay more attention to my much-missed "Me Times", enroll in classes I have put off, or even focus on establishing my dreams (business) again. Or maybe, it's actually okay to dance in the rain again. Soaked in His everlasting love and blessings, it wasn't actually all that bad.
Thank you for the well-wishes, love, and patience. To my readers, my family, and most especially my friends.
...You know who you are, Happy Birthday. :)