Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Bulutong Diaries Day 10

Aka: The end of the bulutong blog series.



Just a little update.

I guess I wasn't able to blog yesterday because it was when things already happened. My clouded eyes are already clearer, and I finally know all the reasons, and thus the end of the wondering.

Also, with perfectly synchronized timing, it's also the end of my infectious state (aka chicken pox). I think I am super well already, I can go out now and dance in the rain.

Even though there's nothing to dance about.

People were hurt, and things were said without thinking, I have regrets on doing so, but now I get to pay for the not so nice things I've felt and done. I have no power to undo things, or even more the power to persuade what I wanted from others. I completely understand everything, and all I can do now is wait.

I still believe, even though I am openly sad right now, that things happen for God's perfect reasons. I currently have no clue why, but I still hold on to that mindset, less I want to die now out of depression. Other than God's reasons, I also believe in HIS time. That day will come when things are okay again, but for now while I wait, I guess it's okay to enjoy other things...Like maybe, hangout with friends I haven't seen and actually connect for so long. Or pay more attention to my much-missed "Me Times", enroll in classes I have put off, or even focus on establishing my dreams (business) again. Or maybe, it's actually okay to dance in the rain again. Soaked in His everlasting love and blessings, it wasn't actually all that bad.

Thank you for the well-wishes, love, and patience. To my readers, my family, and most especially my friends.


...You know who you are, Happy Birthday. :)

12 comments:

  1. Hope your okay na. Nagkabulutong din ako 2 years ago. Until now my mga scars pa rin buti na lang sa body lang....

    ReplyDelete
  2. I hope you'll be perfectly ok already. :) stay healthy and pretty!

    http://pastelbluejacket.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete
  3. Yannie: Me too! Marami sa tummy na marks nalang, I hope makuha ng saktong sabon and time lang hehehe :) Thank you so much! :)

    Makeup... - thank you so much, really hope to get back on track na :) <3

    ReplyDelete
  4. glad you're [physically] well na. =) hope everything else in your life that's sort of not-too-okay follows soon. =)

    sobrang tempted akong maligo sa ulan kahapon, buti na lang pinigilan ako ni inay. hahaha!

    ReplyDelete
  5. I hope everything turns out well for you. Sounds like you have a lot on your plate.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Ghoent: Thank you so much :) I really hope the right time is set for this not-too-ok thing, pero sana it wouldn't be that long din, hehe :P But I guess that's too much to ask, so all I can do is really pray and get busy sigh

    Michelle: thank you so much, i never thought Ill get so much comfort from people here on the www, sana talaga..:)

    ReplyDelete
  7. Thank you so much aie...may kwentos ako uli ako sayo! I miss you! Thank you so much for the comfort, sobrang depression na ata to, hindi ko na dedeny kesa lahat nakatago lang inside of me. Good thing nakakabusy tong Bloggers United! :)

    ReplyDelete
  8. I'm going through some things too. But with everyday prayers (almost 3X or more) a day helps me get by. I don't pray like the usual like rosary or anything. I pray in my mind like talking to God. I pause and tell him my troubles and then ask for his guidance. That's how I get by. Friends also helps a lot. So, go girl!!! Get out and have fun with them!!!

    ReplyDelete
  9. Thank you so much Olive! :) <3 I think the good that comes out of all these mess is that I realize that I forgot Him already and God wasn't in the center of my life already...
    Thanks for the pick upper, and I sure hope things will go well for you too! :) Let's only hope for the best for each other! And FIGHT lang everyday! :)

    ReplyDelete
  10. In God's time sis :)

    Love you! :)

    ReplyDelete
  11. Thank you sis! I love you too! :) <3 Yes, I really believe in HIS timing :)

    ReplyDelete

Your turn! Always excited to read your comments! :)