I am just happy that I am starting to love blog stalking again (haha). I think this is one of the commendable first steps I am taking in my goal of being "happy with solitude" (Along with "Project Eat"). Hindi na ako (masyadong) naiinip, or uneasy. I know there are lots of things and places to explore, people to meet and "tame" (Little Prince meaning), and things to look forward to. In short, life is too exciting to go drama queen all over again.
Parang ang dali daling isipin till I am left off-guard, like early in the morning when I just woke up (mabuti pa sa gabi sa sobrang pagod bagsak kaagad sa kama, hehe). I have to keep myself busy, 'less I want loneliness to creep in again. But there will be days when I am just tired with making myself busy--the conscious effort to do this is just exhausting. I just want to be with my friends and laugh and have fun and talk about whats really going on inside my human head. As usual, here I go again depending my happiness to others. Sigh.
I am sure it will take time for me to "burn" all these, but I know it will come. It's a little disheartening to think all these are ONLY possible if I do this on my own. No help from others. Just me, myself, and I. It's just how life goes, I guess. Ang sarap nung may palagi kang pwedeng kwentuhan, but of course the others, even the people closest to me, have lives of their own. I can't bug them 24/7.
As I've said in my old Multiply blog entry, I searched far and wide for that someone who will save me, only to find out that I am only looking for myself. A better, stronger, independent version of myself.
Ok, I know I've been such a brat the past days, I tend to forget to thank God for the blessings He keeps on showering me despite my gloomy disposition with life. I want to be more thankful because a grateful heart is light and truly at peace. And so thank you Lord for this feature in a mainstream magazine. Thank you Patty Mendoza for making this possible!
Ang cute lang, saan kaya yung "Thrifted" na store, hehehe.
I want more "activities" and I'd love to hear your suggestions! Any recommendations on what activities to take (makeover? spa?), classes to join, clubs/orgs to take part of, or even places to visit ng kahit mag isa ka--safe and sulit? :) Beach, nature, historical, post away so I know recommended nyo siya! :)
PS: I just moved my blog to "Personal" category in topblogs.com.ph! Nahiya naman ako sa fashion bloggers that I always post emo entries, hehehe. ;) Thank you my friends for reading though, love you guys. I can't thank you enough for the heartwarming comments. Remember, we are not "followers-blogger", we are friends. :)
PPS: I just read this article linked by my college friend Jam on being a solo traveler. I think ok na conclusion iteych sa Project: Eat Pray Love ko...Go to a destination I am not familiar with (basta naeeroplano hehe), kahit isang week or weekend lang. Grabe bigla akong naexcite at nabuhayan! :D
PPPS: On to exciting news! I have a new segment in this blog I'll call the commenter of the month! :) For June, you can win this: